sometimes it doesn’t go well and weekly reflections: 10/19 – 10/26

the highlight of my week was this view Sunday morning

Change in weight (10/19/20 – 10/26/20):  +0.8 LBS

Sorry for the late post, I broke a crown on my tooth in half today so that derailed my plans…

I am a very positive person who often sees the glass as half full. I also try to portray positivity to those around me, because I see my optimism as a gift and I want to share joy and share positivity. It is easy to grumble. Sometimes we need that somebody to override the grumble with some smiles. With that said, I am not always rainbows and unicorns. I am not stoked all the time and I definitely do not succeed at everything. I am always honest with you all, but I am not always showing the full picture. I’m trying to shed a little more light now.

This past week was really hard. In hindsight, the past 2-3 weeks have been super rough for me. I have not just been tired, but I have been in a mental and emotional funk. Mental health is a real thing and something that we all need to be conscious of. I am not expert, but I do battle with some depression and have learned much since I was first diagnosed in college.

I consider myself lucky as I was diagnosed with a more mild case (I don’t even understand how that works), but I do not always struggle with these feelings. For me, I usually struggle with it for a couple weeks, a couple times per year. One would think that I should be a total master of those emotions by now, but that’s not always how it works.

So the past few weeks I have truly struggled to find motivation. Motivation with work, exercise, clean eating, home stuff, anything. Really everything was hard. It was hard to wake up. It was hard to explain to my wife what was bothering me. It was hard to control any aspect of my life and therefore, discipline dissipated.

Through it all I feel I have turned a corner. I was not thrilled with my weigh-in this morning, but know why it happened. I will not be ashamed of my struggles, but continue to try to understand them and work to fight them. I know that for me, routine is one of the best ways to combat these depressed feelings. Sometimes it takes a shock to wake up and take the first step back into a routine. I am working on getting back to my 30 minutes of solid activity per day and with 2-days in a row, I am already feeling better. Better food, better activity, the same rock of a spouse, and a support network are going to be some of the tools I use to get back to being myself.

Leave a like or a comment. Are there things you struggle with that seem beyond you? Do you need to take stock of the tools you have?

How did I do on last weeks action plan?:

  1. 5 Cardio workouts. 1 45 min ride, 1 HIIT Ride, 1 Low Impact ride, 1 run. Not Attained
  2. 2 Strength Sessions (Tues/Sat) Not attained
  3. Plan out my meals, stick to them, and portion snacks. Partially Attained.
  4. 2 additional outdoor activities. This can include walks with my daughter, disc golfing, skiing, etc. Attained
  5. 3 dedicated stretch sessions. 2 10-min lower body and 1 10 min full body (Mon/Wed/Fri). Not Attained
  6. 20-30 minute midday walk on work days. Attained
  7. Track every bite. Attained
  8. Drink 10 glasses of water per day. Attained
  9. Find some quiet time to calm my thoughts and mind. 2 5-10 minute sessions. Attained

Action Plan

  1. 5 Cardio workouts. 1 45 min ride, 1 HIIT Ride, 1 Low Impact ride, 1 misc ride, 1 run.
  2. 2 Strength Sessions (Tues/Sat)
  3. Plan out my meals, stick to them, and portion snacks
  4. 2 additional outdoor activities. This can include walks with my daughter, disc golfing, skiing, etc
  5. 3 dedicated stretch sessions. 2 10-min lower body and 1 10 min full body (Mon/Wed/Fri)
  6. 20-30 minute midday walk on work days
  7. Track every bite
  8. Drink 10 glasses of water per day
  9. Find some quiet time to calm my thoughts and mind. 2 5-10 minute sessions

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DateChange in Weight
12/1*
12/2*-5.4 lbs
12/9-5.4 lbs
12/16-3.4 lbs
12/23+2.8 lbs
12/29-1.2 lbs
1/6-1.4 lbs
1/13-1.6 lbs
1/20-1.4 lbs
1/27+0.4 lbs
2/3-1.2 lbs
2/10-4.6 lbs
2/17+0.4 lbs
2/24-1.6 lbs
3/2-3.2 lbs
3/9+1.8 lbs
3/16-3.2 lbs
3/23-0.6 lbs
3/30+0.4 lbs
4/6-1.6 lbs
4/13+0.8 lbs
4/20-1.8 lbs
4/270 lbs
5/4+2.4 lbs
5/11-5.2 lbs
5/180 lbs
5/25-1.0 lbs
6/1-1.2 lbs
6/8-0.4 lbs
6/15-0.8 lbs
6/22+0.8 lbs
6/29-1.4 lbs
7/6-2.4 lbs
7/13+2.4 lbs
7/20-1.6 lbs
7/27-0.4 lbs
8/3-1.2 lbs
8/10+0.4 lbs
8/17-1.4 lbs
8/24-1.4 lbs
8/31-0.2 lbs
9/7-0.6 lbs
9/14-1.4 lbs
9/21+0.2 lbs
9/28-1.8 lbs
10/5-0.2 lbs
10/12-1.0 lbs
10/19-1.0 lbs
10/26+0.8 lbs

* I first weighed myself on a Sunday night and began the regular weigh-ins the following morning

-Ben

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