https://foxtrot.michaeljfox.org/fox-trot-virtual/Benjamincrosby
Change in weight (9/15/20 – 9/21/20): +0.2 LBS
This week was surprisingly difficult. I think all around, it was an emotional dud. I did not feel great (mentally), only a couple workouts felt good, and I just wanted to eat. My appetite was on fire… and not the appetite because I need to sustain. I had the “I’m feeling down and want to fill this feeling with all the unhealthy foods imaginable” appetite. So all week I had the internal struggle of wanting to demolish food and the fight to not. And the whole time I felt guilty.
Silver lining: I gained 0.2 pounds this week. I am considering that a win. Not every week is a triumph and life has ups and downs. I am going to celebrate that, despite my mood and appetite this week, I barely gained weight. What did happen was I proved, yet again, that I can be in charge of my body and my mind (to some degree). Do I wish I lost weight? Yes. Did I actually think I gained 5 pounds? Maybe. I was not in complete control, but my new lifestyle and habits protected me from going completely off the rails, when I thought I did.
My fight with food, and using it for comfort, continues. I do not think this will be something that can just be turned off, but something I will need to work on over time. It will be something I need to understand, find coping mechanisms, and patience to work through it when the desires come.
Looking forward to other things, I posted on Saturday that I will be running a 5k to raise money and awareness on Parkinson’s disease. This disease has personally impacted my family and I would encourage you to read my post to learn more. I have attached the link to my fundraising page if you feel moved to support this. Any amount helps.
https://foxtrot.michaeljfox.org/fox-trot-virtual/Benjamincrosby
I am excited to do this 5k, not only to try and help a good and just cause, but also to continue pushing myself. Folks with Parkinson’s disease have to push more and more every day to attain the same level of mobility and livelihood. I think that the lease I can do is push harder and harder to grow where I can, while I can. I owe it to those who try harder than I ever will, to push myself as best as I can. I have never run a straight 5k, but am hoping to the first weekend of October. I will write more on that later.
For this coming week I need to reset my mind. I need to focus on my goals and stick to my plan. I would like to turn it around for next Monday, be proud of my exercise and my consumption, and to have a better mindset than I do today.
Leave a like or a comment. What are some tricks you use to deter your mind from a desire to eat? Do you have any tips for a baby runner? Looking to grow into a more seasoned runner?
How did I do on last weeks action plan?:
- 5 Cardio workouts. 1 45 min ride, 1 HIIT Ride, 1 Low Impact ride, 1 run. Attained
- 2 Strength Sessions (Tues/Sat) Not attained
- Plan out my meals, stick to them, and portion snacks. Attained.
- 2 additional outdoor activities. This can include walks with my daughter, disc golfing, skiing, etc. Attained
- 3 dedicated stretch sessions. 2 10-min lower body and 1 10 min full body (Mon/Wed/Fri). Not Attained
- 20-30 minute midday walk on work days. Attained
- Track every bite. Not Attained
- Drink 10 glasses of water per day. Attained
- Find some quiet time to calm my thoughts and mind. 2 5-10 minute sessions. Attained
Action Plan
- 5 Cardio workouts. 1 45 min ride, 1 HIIT Ride, 1 Low Impact ride, 1 misc ride, 1 run.
- 2 Strength Sessions (Tues/Sat)
- Plan out my meals, stick to them, and portion snacks
- 2 additional outdoor activities. This can include walks with my daughter, disc golfing, skiing, etc
- 3 dedicated stretch sessions. 2 10-min lower body and 1 10 min full body (Mon/Wed/Fri)
- 20-30 minute midday walk on work days
- Track every bite
- Drink 10 glasses of water per day
- Find some quiet time to calm my thoughts and mind. 2 5-10 minute sessions
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| Date | Change in Weight |
| 12/1* | – |
| 12/2* | -5.4 lbs |
| 12/9 | -5.4 lbs |
| 12/16 | -3.4 lbs |
| 12/23 | +2.8 lbs |
| 12/29 | -1.2 lbs |
| 1/6 | -1.4 lbs |
| 1/13 | -1.6 lbs |
| 1/20 | -1.4 lbs |
| 1/27 | +0.4 lbs |
| 2/3 | -1.2 lbs |
| 2/10 | -4.6 lbs |
| 2/17 | +0.4 lbs |
| 2/24 | -1.6 lbs |
| 3/2 | -3.2 lbs |
| 3/9 | +1.8 lbs |
| 3/16 | -3.2 lbs |
| 3/23 | -0.6 lbs |
| 3/30 | +0.4 lbs |
| 4/6 | -1.6 lbs |
| 4/13 | +0.8 lbs |
| 4/20 | -1.8 lbs |
| 4/27 | 0 lbs |
| 5/4 | +2.4 lbs |
| 5/11 | -5.2 lbs |
| 5/18 | 0 lbs |
| 5/25 | -1.0 lbs |
| 6/1 | -1.2 lbs |
| 6/8 | -0.4 lbs |
| 6/15 | -0.8 lbs |
| 6/22 | +0.8 lbs |
| 6/29 | -1.4 lbs |
| 7/6 | -2.4 lbs |
| 7/13 | +2.4 lbs |
| 7/20 | -1.6 lbs |
| 7/27 | -0.4 lbs |
| 8/3 | -1.2 lbs |
| 8/10 | +0.4 lbs |
| 8/17 | -1.4 lbs |
| 8/24 | -1.4 lbs |
| 8/31 | -0.2 lbs |
| 9/7 | -0.6 lbs |
| 9/14 | -1.4 lbs |
| 9/21 | +0.2 lbs |
* I first weighed myself on a Sunday night and began the regular weigh-ins the following morning
-Ben
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